“Ask yourself: Why am I seeing and feeling this? How am I growing? What am I learning? Remember: Every coincidence is potentially meaningful. How high your awareness level is determines how much meaning you get from your world.”

Ansel Adams

“You will never be able to experience everything. So, please do…justice to your soul and simply experience yourself.”

Albert Camus

As a teenager, I wrote dark plotless horror tales, whatever I pulled out of my imagination and based on the nightmares that kept me company in the daytime. The stories had few characters and the writing mainly served as part of a purging process, going hand in hand with singing loudly in the dark, being rebellious, and finding places to put the remainder of my energy.

In my early 20s, I wrote novels. Over the span of 9 years, I attempted 7 novels during NaNoWriMo (one was a rewrite of a previous failed year, and another was autobiographical). Four of them “won” (50,000+ words), one of them had 80,000+ words, but only one of them was completed. My last best one was written when I was 26.

Busy Weekends started as a creative business. I had lots of content trapped inside my brain waiting to come out that centered around helping other people find their creative muses, how to learn to listen to their hearts, self-care during difficult shit, celebrating moments, accepting weirdness, and generally sharing all the other life lessons I had learned and was still learning during my 20s.

My mid-20s is also when I thrived writing zines, including Creativity for Introverts, Self-Care for Creatives, several perzines, a few litzines, and a plethora of minizines on various topics. My personal writing peaked and I compiled many of my closely themed pieces into a book titled Twilight Tales. Self-publishing goals: accomplished.

“We’re both looking at the same moon, in the same world.”

Haruki Murakami

Post-28, I haven’t had much desire to share online. My views on privacy have changed a lot since I found the internet, but I’ve still had meaningful experiences that I’ve wanted to distribute to those who might find it useful. That’s where I’ve felt stuck the past several years with my writing.

In the meantime, I’ve embarked on a project to release a zine every 6 months during my 30s. The project is still in its infancy and I’m looking for stable grounds. The zine is called Exciteshroom, which is an item from the video game series Monster Hunter. When a hunter eats an exciteshroom, it gives a random effect. Potential outcomes include: Health increase, half of health lost, stamina decrease, infinite stamina for a set time, attack increase, defense increase. Basically, you don’t know what you’re going to get and it could be either really good or quite detrimental to your quest. Sort of like life.

I can’t tell you what to expect from this website; to be honest, it’ll probably stagnate for a while. However, if you’re interested in my words or memories, connect with me. Exciteshroom and all my previous in-print zines are available for trade.

“You wanna fly, you got to give up the shit that weighs you down.”

Toni Morrison